A Welcome Visitor December 17, 2007
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Hi, it’s just over a week to Christmas, and at last it’s beginning to feel festive here in Scotland. It’s not snowing yet, but there is definitely a feeling of excitement and anticipation in the freezing cold air.
I have just had a comment from someone in Abadiania called Pete. It’s really good to know that I’m not alone on this journey.
I am a little envious. I bet it’s lovely and warm there at the moment; a far cry from the sub zero chill here. It must be really special in Abadiania at Christmas; I’m really considering going next year at that time, but you know, anything can happen in a year.
I bought myself a Nintendo Wii yesterday and nearly dislocated my shoulder playing the tennis game. I think that I was getting carried away with all the excitement. Of course, it will be back in the box by New Year and wrapped up in birthday paper for one of my nephews birthday, but for now, I’m having fun. That’s what life should be all about, right!
Anyway, thats enough for now.
Merry Christmas to you all.
A good thing December 10, 2007
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Hi, so it’s been a week since I was at the hospital. My blood results were good. A CD4 of 505, down from 628, and an undetectable viral load. My percentages were actually higher, even though my CD4 was down, so I’m quite happy. The 628 reading was from just after my last visit to Brazil, way back in June of this year. My liver enzymes were also better, so my liver has been healed a little. But you know what, I really don’t want to focus on these numbers. I feel really good, and I’m looking quite good as well, so that is all I am concerned with.
I’m back at the gym, with a vengeance, and I’m bulging in places I’ve never bulged before. Does this all sound a little self-indulgent. I’m beginning to think it does. That wasn’t the point of this blog; my original goal was to help people see that I am living well with hiv, and it really was supposed to be about healing, and mainly Brazil, and what goes on there. However, i won’t be going back for another few months, and life is just plodding along at the moment; the big run up before Christmas and New Year.
I’m trying to get my coaching business up and running, but I tell you it’s not easy work. But I am learning to market myself, and I guess it wil take time. I just need to remain focused and certain that it will all happen. I mean, it’s a good thing I’m doing.
I have been thrown out of some HIV forum for plugging this blog. I can understand if I was selling something, but as you can see I’m selling nothing. So yeah, they chucked me off. It’s a shame actually because what I wrote was a reply to some poor guy, obviously in a lot of pain. I was only trying to help, but the moderators thought otherwise. Why are most of these forums filled with such negative people. I mean, almost every one that I’ve joined have such a down message, and to me that shouldn’t be the case. The HIV community, and that’s exactly what we are, need an injection of hope and life, optimism and faith. And although this blog doesn’t really address how I can help people with HIV recover their self-esteem and confidence and create amazing lives for themselves, I will shortly be setting up a coaching blog to do just that. I jsut read that last sentence, and it may sound like I’m on an ego trip or some crusade to save poor souls, but that’s not my intention. My lack of writing skills may not convey my genuine caring and real purpose behind my desire to help those who desperately need help, to those who desperately want to build a great future. Let’s face it, HIV is not a death sentence anymore. To most people it is a life sentence, but to me it’s an opportunity to grow, and discover who I really am, and what I can really achieve in life. And if I can help people see that what lies in front of them in life is dependent on them, and that they have the POWER to transform their lives, then I am doing a good thing.
Very dark corridors December 2, 2007
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So it’s the beginning of December, and I am feeling quite down. I really don’t feel it’s appropriate to go into details, but let’s just say that old patterns of behaviour have risen to the surface, and I am healing old wounds. I feel insecure and quite vulnerable. Of course, I have my time in Brazil to thank for all of this. As I’ve said before, my healing process has taken me down some very dark corridors, but this one is familiar, and to be honest I’m not having the best of times.
I think I will do some self-hypnosis, and meditate till my head explodes. That will probably resolve the issues. But for today, I’ll take it easy.
I have my quarterly check up at the hiv clinic on tuesday, so I’ll keep you posted. My cd4 was 628 three months ago and viral load undetectable, so I’m expecting my results to be even better this time. Of course, I don’t really pay much attention to the numbers, but more to how I feel. And apart from this emotional roller-coaster ride I’m on at the moment, I feel great.
I’m back at the gym, and I’ve decided to train with a girl called Linda. She’s fun, and has a great energy; it’s a joy to be around her. My usual trainer, a very handsome sexy guy, distracts me, with his bulging muscles, etc. And at this moment in time, it’s the last thing I need.
I have a lot of spare time off work this month, so I can pour a lot of my energy and time into developing my coaching business.. I can’t wait
